I used to be the girl that said “I don’t need people”. I used to hide my emotions and block my heart out to anyone who tried to get to know the real me just so I could protect myself from potential heartbreak. And if I did let someone in and they trashed my heart, they would be dead to me because I just “didn’t need people”. Independence was enough after all, right?  Let me tell you… that’s a lonely road to walk. I’ve had to learn the hard way, one too many times that shutting people out does no good for either side. Loneliness is a beast of its own. It finally took me realizing that I couldn’t put walls up because of what people might do to me. If genuineness was something I wanted to obtain, I would have to risk putting my heart out there. A change of attitude didn’t stop people from hurting me in some ways, but a change of heart did fix how I dealt with it. I think at the end of my life, I’m not going to think about all of the people that I let into my heart that were a little too reckless. No. I’ll remember the beautiful souls that brought so much love, they made me forget why I ever put walls up in the first place. Some people will never know how to handle your heart. But, life is too dang short to think that all people will hurt you and that you don’t need them. Life was never meant to be done alone. 

I was stuck in the same building for 10 hours straight today so sorry for this iPhone pic of an over photographed mosaic. 

Sometimes you need mindless days where you don’t think about anything except for what’s right in front of you. 

And I feel like I could drive to the very tip of the earth and climb the ladder of stars to dangle my legs over the edge of the moon  
He would tell me his secrets as we watched the buzzing lights below 

And there, I would leave him in his resting place, where he would continue to collect everything we leave in the night as I drive on home  

“Because I’m a firm believer that the condition of loneliness has very little to do with a relationship status. But everything to do with God calling us to be alone with Him”

so I’ll watch the time pass I’ll watch the cars drive by, en route  

And I will peacefully look forward to the day when 

you + I 

can drive off onto our next far off destination

just 

me + you 

& blissful memories yet to come 

Sometimes you have to let people go that don’t really want to be in your life. Someone just told me “you only have a few best friends in your life”, and my heart is too full with love from the people that want to be there. 

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